Falling In Love...

If you see me walking with someone else, 
It's not because I want to!
It's because you weren't brave enough to walk by me...
If you see me smile,
It's not because i forgot you!
It's because i got tired of crying for you...
If you see me living again,
It's not because I've moved on!
It's because I hate the fact you can live without me...
So if I fall in love with someone else,
It's not because I want to!
It's because you weren't there to catch me...

I Cannot Hate You...

Just Because

You Left Me,

Doesn't Mean

I Would

Hate You!!

He asked me...How can you love me even after I left you??? And I have only one answer to this question...I Love You!

It's not possible to hate a person you loved more than yourself. Yes, you definitely move on...but HATE??? No!!!!

Its been 4 months but still....

When I hear a thing about him, my heartbeat skips!

When I hear he is in problem, I run for help!

When I hear about his success, I feel proud!

Even between so many people, my eyes search him!

Maybe...

This Is What Love Is All About!!

...Staying away and caring....

...Being in a crowd and missing...

...Being Happy and Crying....

Life Sucks....

I have been trying to move on and was slowly succeeding but I donno what god has in store for me....God brought him back in my life again!!!! -_-
I had decided I wont talk to him but initialized a conversation which I couldn't ignore! We were talking properly for 2-3 days but again he hurt me!!!
I shouldn't have allowed him to re-enter my life...
Even if I was not "Happily Living"....Atleast I was "Surviving"!
But now, he has broken my heart again into pieces...!
It's My Advice to all of you..."Going Back to Your Ex Is Like Watching The Same Horror Movie Again"
It wont ever change!

Expect Less From Others and More From Yourself!!!

The day I stopped expecting from him...My expectations from myself grew!!

And I must tell you...Its one of the best things to do!!

We expect from other and when they don't fulfill our expectations we feel bad about it.. It does not make any difference to the other person's life. But makes our life terrible. We start questioning ourselves whether we deserve it or not...

The best thing of expectation more from self is that our expectations are always fulfilled! We cannot hurt ourselves purposely and so we fulfill the expectations!!...:)

So...

Today's Lesson: Expect Less From Other And More From Yourself!!!!

Just one thing is enough to remind you of the past....

Silly, Stupid Me!!!

Today,
I woke up with a Smile on my face after almost three months!!! :-)
At first I thought Awesome climate... But you know climate is always awesome when we feel awesome inside!
I was feeling light... After deciding to let go off and just flow with life, I was actually feeling light inside!!!
I was feeling good about my self!!!
Alll this while when I was with him... I had lost all my self esteem. He always made me believe I was not good for him. But, today I feel he left me because he could not be the best for me.
Now, I am free.... I can do all the stupid things which I couldn't do with him! He was always that high class kind of guy... Loved going to posh restaurants and behaving like 30-something mature when we were jus teenagers, wearing only branded clothes, always drinking mineral water, and all those things which I thought were pathetic...
I mean how can a 19-20 years old guy do all those high class things?
We were totally opposite in this. Our choices differed like Sun and Moon!
For instance I am silly, like doing stupid things, I do mistakes and I dont understand what's wrong in being wrong sometimes???
Whereas he always told me sit properly, eat properly,  behave properly,  blah blah blah!!!
I loved him like anything and was ready to do anything for him....Even if that meant acting 10-15 years older than my actual age! I did it....Maybe to impress him or maybe just for his happiness, but I did all the those things. But in the process of trying to impress him I had stopp loving myself.
Now, I am free. I don't have to impress anybody. Nobody's gonna tell me that do it 'properly'. I can be silly,  stupid and wrong!!!
So...today's aim-"Be silly,  stupid and wrong. But love yourself!!!"

Out Of Blue!!!!

This is my only post about the past for my readers....
We were talking casually that day... As usual had a small tiff! As usual decided to breakup...
But the only thing which was not as usual was that he was so damn serious about the breakup!!!
I thought we would be back together. But I was wrong!
He said he "Needed space"!!!
And all these years I thought he needed me...
Suddenly everything changed!!!
We became You and Me...
I Love You became I love being Single...
His Care turned into Ignorance and My Smile turned into Tears...
And I was still hoping that some miracle would happen and he would come back.
But how and why will he come back when he is so much happy without me? All those years spent together meant nothing to him... He moved on so easily!!!!
It was really difficult for me to believe that he had forgotten everything.  And it was more difficult because till the very moment of breakup he was so nice to me! Yes, we have had arguments,  breakups but the thing was we always came back together!  How could he move on this time?
But after going through all these questions in my head again and again I finally decided it was not worth waiting for someone who could just leave me alone to enjoy his 'Single Status'!
So... now here I am..."After Break Up"!