Today,
I woke up with a Smile on my face after almost three months!!! :-)
At first I thought Awesome climate... But you know climate is always awesome when we feel awesome inside!
I was feeling light... After deciding to let go off and just flow with life, I was actually feeling light inside!!!
I was feeling good about my self!!!
Alll this while when I was with him... I had lost all my self esteem. He always made me believe I was not good for him. But, today I feel he left me because he could not be the best for me.
Now, I am free.... I can do all the stupid things which I couldn't do with him! He was always that high class kind of guy... Loved going to posh restaurants and behaving like 30-something mature when we were jus teenagers, wearing only branded clothes, always drinking mineral water, and all those things which I thought were pathetic...
I mean how can a 19-20 years old guy do all those high class things?
We were totally opposite in this. Our choices differed like Sun and Moon!
For instance I am silly, like doing stupid things, I do mistakes and I dont understand what's wrong in being wrong sometimes???
Whereas he always told me sit properly, eat properly, behave properly, blah blah blah!!!
I loved him like anything and was ready to do anything for him....Even if that meant acting 10-15 years older than my actual age! I did it....Maybe to impress him or maybe just for his happiness, but I did all the those things. But in the process of trying to impress him I had stopp loving myself.
Now, I am free. I don't have to impress anybody. Nobody's gonna tell me that do it 'properly'. I can be silly, stupid and wrong!!!
So...today's aim-"Be silly, stupid and wrong. But love yourself!!!"
I woke up with a Smile on my face after almost three months!!! :-)
At first I thought Awesome climate... But you know climate is always awesome when we feel awesome inside!
I was feeling light... After deciding to let go off and just flow with life, I was actually feeling light inside!!!
I was feeling good about my self!!!
Alll this while when I was with him... I had lost all my self esteem. He always made me believe I was not good for him. But, today I feel he left me because he could not be the best for me.
Now, I am free.... I can do all the stupid things which I couldn't do with him! He was always that high class kind of guy... Loved going to posh restaurants and behaving like 30-something mature when we were jus teenagers, wearing only branded clothes, always drinking mineral water, and all those things which I thought were pathetic...
I mean how can a 19-20 years old guy do all those high class things?
We were totally opposite in this. Our choices differed like Sun and Moon!
For instance I am silly, like doing stupid things, I do mistakes and I dont understand what's wrong in being wrong sometimes???
Whereas he always told me sit properly, eat properly, behave properly, blah blah blah!!!
I loved him like anything and was ready to do anything for him....Even if that meant acting 10-15 years older than my actual age! I did it....Maybe to impress him or maybe just for his happiness, but I did all the those things. But in the process of trying to impress him I had stopp loving myself.
Now, I am free. I don't have to impress anybody. Nobody's gonna tell me that do it 'properly'. I can be silly, stupid and wrong!!!
So...today's aim-"Be silly, stupid and wrong. But love yourself!!!"
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